So this is a different type of blog post, this is a little bit about myself and I guess coming to a realization about my own health...and weight. Yes I said that scary word, weight. This is a rather hard post for me, because I came to terms about myself in that respect, and took to heart that I need to become HEALTHY. Operative word right there, healthy. I am what a doctor technically calls obese, and it is hard to hear that and trust me, even harder to shop for clothing. I always end up in tears and just walk out of a store hating myself. I am NOT on a crusade to get skinny or fit into an unrealistic size or try to drop a huge amount of pounds in unhealthy ways. Marlena, the MakeupGeek (look her up, SUCH a sweet woman) really inspired me, because for her, it was not about getting skinny but also being healthy. I am always going to be a little "bigger" and understand that.
I guess I am writing this post as my official "HI YES I WILL BE ACCOUNTABLE" for my own health. I have a big motivation because according to my doctor, I am on my way to diabetes if I don't change now and being a person who faints with needles....needless to say I would not fair well with having to get my blood checked daily! *ick* Now I am terrified posting something like this, because I know that there are many who are out there who will be more than happy to rip on a blogger. But here I am :) I would say that my crusade is to change my view/ relationship with food. I have found my happy place in my life, and after turning to food as my stable/ constant, I'm ready to let that go and to turn food into the thing that gives me energy...not happiness.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this. It is more of a public proclaimation that today, I, will change my life relationship to food. I will become healthy. PERIOD. Not "skinny" not "tiny" but healthy. I would like to be able to checkin with you all about my progress, because I do feel that health is somewhat of a "beauty" item. I would like an opinion about this because I completely understand if some feel that it is a huge waste of time, and no hating will be a result. I know that many ladies follow/ read for the beauty products. So I think that is all I wanted to really say. :)
Oh and I will not be using any type of supplement, or cleansing, this is really just about a life long change.
Thanks everyone, and stay healthy this season :)